Still breathing.

Its been awhile (its maybe a year and half) since I have no idea what to talk about to in this blog but I used to talk nothing and nonsense. I'm still breathing, in the same air as yours. Well said, life is good. I'd admit I cried a lot last year. I can't deny it. It might sounds funny because in another 10 years, I will even be realised how funny it was when throwback in time that I'm crying for a little things that doesnt matter at all. Stawp it. I wanted to share something.. I dont know why did I stalk people (I know you did it too, I mean yeah then what kind of you're reading now hahaha) So here we go, let's begin..

It supposed to revise math subject as I got math's class but it ends up with stalking someone's.. I saw someone's tweet pop out in my timeline ((someone's I followed was retweeted his tweets omg did u really understand this mayn bcs im not going to explain)) so I retweeted his tweets and followed him. I never intended to stalk him at first. Dont ask me bcs I don't know who is he, too. But I'm just too sure that by reading his tweets, I can sense my sadness toward someone. Somehow I was like.. "Shizz we're in da same boat???!" And I read.. I read.. (Im not that easy to stalk to that far though but its yes for this time) And all of sudden

My tears are falling down. 

I swear, call me weird. Tears down, I can't hold on. It realised me that I'm not the only one who's been hurt. It realised me that I'm not the one who's been waiting. It realised me that I'm not the only one who are afraid to confess the truth. It realised me that there's someone out there who feels what I've felt and what I've been through and what I've been afraid of and what I've been experienced. Being called as an 'emotional' person. Yes, people say that to me too. Idk the things that was happened to me, its happened to him too. I know how it feels. In fact anyway, I'm not actually going to share these kind of stories. The point is..

In this life, when we're having a problem just sit down first and take a breath and yes we shouldn't think that we're the only one in this world that having worst problems. If we used to think like.. "everyone is happy but me..." no it is super no no no it is a big no. I'm not saying I'm good enough to say this. I hate to admit this but it is hard for me to get up when I'm falling hard. Everyone has their own ways to settle down & cheer up themselves. Fall seven times, stand up eight. When life knocks you down, stand back up and keep trying.

Loved one,
xoxo

New day starts.

Always appreciate for everything. As I said, there's a side that I couldn't see yet because there's some reason and there's hidden happiness by something that I've been throughout my stories life. Thank to my only God, Allah. Allah listens me. Allah has been listened to my silent-prayer. Never expected that my dreams and my wishlists would be fulfilled by a thousand of happiness. I coundn't explain my feelings right now through a words. A words aint enough to me. Finally I caught myself smiling without........faking and falsifies it.

It is necessary, then, to cultivate the habit of being gratefulfor every good thing that comes to us, and to give thanks continuously. And because all things have contributed to your advancement, you should include all things in yourgratitude. If people offer their help or wisdom as you go through life, accept it gratefully. You can learn much from those who have gone before you. But never be afraid or hesitant to step off the accepted path and head off in your own direction,

If your heart tells you that it's the right way for you.

Always believe that you will ultimately succeed at whatever you do, and never forget the value of persistence, discipline, and determination. You are meant to be whatever you dream of becoming. The world has enough beautiful mountains and meadows, spectacular skies and serene lakes. It has enough lush forests, flowered fields and sandy beaches. It has plenty of stars and the promise of a new sunrise and sunset every day. What the world needs more of is people to appreciate and enjoy it.

With arms outstretched I thank. With heart beating gratefully I love. With body in health I jump for joy. With spirit full I live. Till then, Assalamualaikum.  x

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Loved one,

7676.

Vibrancy.

Eventually feelings weird when someone told you...

"You're changed."

How fast time flies. I couldn't get any moments back but sure tho for memories. Everyone is growing up. Physically height. Mentality has a matured brain. Sometimes we're did not even conscious how much and how in so far as we're knowing somebody and maybe we just realize it takes 2 or even 4 years to be really really knowing them as not just on their names, though on everythings. Did we ever ask ourself....

"Am I?"

It's not easy to figure out of something that really complicated for us. E

Gawky.

I supposed to do something productive today but end up with yawning for non stop instead. (lol) What a great Saturday. Fresh air, in a glorious month. Alhamdulillah, i'm still here, still alive. Have been wondering, what if I'll die today? What if I'll be gone for a long time and never come back? I'm start to think how it was like when we're passed away. How many sins we've to committed. How it feels like when we got punishment. Indeed, the fear of that pain, I'm afraid. Allah knows the best.

People were living up and used to depends on their intention. We don't even need to know on how they do, where it is, which one of the best or something else. We should really know about their intention. Our intention when we're about to do something. If our intention's good, it will always been good and no matter how hard it is, you'll catch it as long as you could.

"But what if I can't get what I want eventhough I've already gave a lot of my efforts on it . Futhermore, what if everything that I want wasn't on my fate?"

After all, did you know what will happen soon? Did you ever heard that, Allah will never give something to someone who doesn't trying and make efforts? :) No doubt.

As a teenager, I couldn't even escaping myself from problems.Why should I? Is it worth for me, soon? Is it my problems will be deficient than before? It's obviously not.

Don't lose your hope. I'm begging you for not giving up. Make efforts.

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7676.

Cure.

First of all, Salam Ramadhan to all muslim. May Allah bless us in this precious month.

I don't have a choice. I just made a decision. I don't know if it's right but I'm pretty sure that I'd made a right  decision in the right time. Wipe the tears, as long as I have to. There's a reason behind a story. That's why I'm going to complete my decision even I've to be exprienced of pain. Full of soreness, my soul was fading. Without stupefaction, I'll be carry forward on everything. I could stand for this as I'm strong enough.

Just need a long time for curing this delicate & weak heart.

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How?

How to stand up when we're about to falling down? Did we ever ask ourself, how much effort we gave? Did we ever make an inconvenience and trouble to someone who didn't deserve it? I'd never ask to get all of this. Maybe these things will be a great lesson for my life. Everything's taught me and many things taught me the same things,

How to stand up with a thousands of confidence.

As my parents said, a good things didn't come for easily. We shouldn't give up for somethings that worth for us. I'd gave up, once but till then all of my friends was give an advice and supported me. I feel appreciated also I've stand up for making my dreams come true and to get something precious for me :x It's precisely work! Our God always listen and never sleep for listening His Servant's prayer. Once I get mad and being a moody person, everything was ruined up my life. I feels like I'm gonna be a lifeless one. I cried a lot. I falled hard for something I didn't even know that I could be able to gain.

I'd make mistakes. And it's my big fault for trying to give up when there's only 99% to catch up & obtained it. Formerly, I don't have a guidance in my deep heart. I've a lot of friends but I don't have my own guidance. Is it sad? Yes it is. My heart keep said, "no you don't have to do that. it's not yours. just give up and have a life. furthermore, you're nobody." It's clearly enough? How to stand up, even my heart keep bring me down and strike fucking down?

With flashbacks, I got many chances to use. Well-turned, I'm going to be a better person.

Lasty, I got what I've wanted before. It's considerably worth for me.

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Loved one,
7676.